If there is one thing that Lover at Last by J. R. Ward has taught me, it’s that sometimes you need a few years and a proper reread to process a book enough to write a review. Feelings, apparently, are not always enough. Or, at least, they don’t have much coherency. Considering Lover At Last had been my most anticipated Black Dagger Brotherhood book? Not surprised.
Qhuinn and Blay’s story had began many, many books ago. And for the most part, it wasn’t a happy one. Because of who they are and how they are. In this book, at long last, their time has come. With all the drama and complications that have been piling up for books, and books, and books. It was bound to be the wildest of rides that could and would hurt.
But somewhere along the way something went wrong
My biggest issue with this book is that I cannot pinpoint the issue. At first, I was sure the disappointment was due to the fact that there was so much more going on that just Qhuinn and Blay. But this isn’t the first book that focuses on other couples in addition to the main one. That’s how Quinn and Blay started in the first place. So it couldn’t be that.
Then, I thought that perhaps my issues lies in the nature of Qhuinn and Blay. Their relationship is very, very different from what we’ve seen before. It’s not just the added sexual aspect, because it’s always been there, like an undercurrent. When I read this book for the first time, back when it was released, I didn’t truly understand it. But now that I’ve read it more slowly, with a different mindset… The change is not an issue at all! In fact, it’s the true appeal. Finally, after so many books, so many years, so much drama, Blay and Qhuinn are confronting their many issues. Both personal and the ones between them. Their relationship had to change in order to become healthy again. So this time, I loved it. It wasn’t always pretty, but it was needed, and it got them where they needed to be.
Therefore, my issue is… Layla. And I know that it might sound like I just hate her simply because she was in the way of my OTP. Because that is how I used to feel, back in the day. Now, however… What pisses me off about her is the holier-than-thou attitude and the special snowflake-ness. She herself may not exhibit it, but that’s how everyone in the BDB universe sees her and that’s just… So annoying. So very annoying. I cannot stand The only reason I want to read upcoming The Chosen, aside from Blay and Qhuinn, is the fact that her story will finally, finally be over.
The truth is, I love Lover At Last. With all its flaws and annoyances. It is one of my absolute favourites in the series. And maybe I just needed a few years and a proper reread to fully understand it. Qhuinn and Blay are precious. Their relationships is precious. This book is the best because it took these two where they needed to go. I didn’t love every step of their journey, but every step was needed. So kudos to Ward. I think I’m finally ready to go on with the series.
Because I still love Black Dagger Brotherhood. The world and the characters and the atmosphere. Dearly. And this certainly isn’t the first book in the series that I have loved, but haven’t given five, or even four, stars. It seems to be a recurring trend for me when it comes to BDB. And I love it just the way it is.
Lover At Last by J. R. Ward
Black Dagger Brotherhood #11
Published by Berkley on March 26th 2013
LGBTQ, Paranormal, Romance, Vampires
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Qhuinn, son of no one, is used to being on his own. Disavowed from his bloodline, shunned by the aristocracy, he has finally found an identity as one of the most brutal fighters in the war against the Lessening Society. But his life is not complete. Even as the prospect of having a family of his own seems to be within reach, he is empty on the inside, his heart given to another....
Blay, after years of unrequited love, has moved on from his feelings for Qhuinn. And it’s about time: it seems Qhuinn has found his perfect match in a Chosen female, and they are going to have a young. It’s hard for Blay to see the new couple together, but building your life around a pipe dream is just a heartbreak waiting to happen. And Qhuinn needs to come to terms with some dark things before he can move forward…
Fate seems to have taken these vampire soldiers in different directions... but as the battle over the race’s throne intensifies, and new players on the scene in Caldwell create mortal danger for the Brotherhood, Qhuinn finally learns the true definition of courage, and two hearts who are meant to be together... finally become one.
How easily do you give up on series? Or DNF books? And have you ever needed a few years and a reread to properly review a book because FEELINGS and CONFUSION and EMOTIONS?